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28 April 2009 @ 05:08 pm
I'm mostly just posting this here so I can retrieve it and print it out after class, but maybe someone will find it useful or interesting. These have been written specifically for the next few weeks, as pet will be staying with me (!!!!)

He should be here within an hour or two. Oh, the anticipation!

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27 April 2009 @ 09:05 pm
(then again, it might just be the caffeine.)

pet is going to be here in less than 24 hours. right now, it is the most beautiful night I could imagine.

I have trouble believing that the two aren't related.
 
 
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Wear your tie fighter shirt today (if you read this in time, which hopefully you are doing, but I know your internet is spotty. If you don't read it in time, wear it tomorrow.)

Also:
"Have you felt yourself pushed to an emotional edge? How would you describe that moment?"

Also also: I believe you said your exams were both in the morning, right? Get yourself something for lunch after you're done with them. Like I said, I expect to be on around 2, though this is subject to some wiggle room.

I may have an assignment for you tomorrow/later today, but I need to figure out if it's practical first. I'll let you know when I come online.
 
 
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protocol:
+ "sir" or "master" for responding to greetings, orders, and when asking permission
+ also, always in response to being addressed as "pet" (this seems to happen naturally)

things that require permission
+ special treats (should be self-explanatory - treats, fancy meals, etc)
+ orgasms/anything sexual
+ going out (if possible; if something comes up and I'm not around to be asked, I understand, but a text/IM/phone message must be left to notify me of any change in plans)

things that do not require permission
+ breakfast, lunch, & healthy snacks (simply because I can't always be around to specify that; this may change in the future)
+ time set aside for schoolwork; pet is expected to keep his grades up

More to be added to this list as I think of it.

Also, a task: over the weekend, you should pick the date that you want to come up. Also, before you do, find at least 5 recipes that you think would be relatively manageable (i.e. not a lot of crazy ingredients; I was going to say nothing that needs complicated preparation, but I'll leave that to your judgment) and that you think we'd both like. You will bring those when you visit.

Prompt for Friday: "Do you find a sense of security in serving or being owned?" (Remember, this is just a starting point, the important thing is that you write *something*.)

and in conclusion, tonight was wonderful. <3 once again you have taken a lousy evening and turned it around for me. I am so lucky to have you.
 
 
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16 April 2009 @ 02:57 am
We had a rough day or two, but I think we're going to be just fine. =)
 
 
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15 April 2009 @ 05:14 pm
but we're working on it. I'm unwilling to give up on working this dynamic out.
 
 
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15 April 2009 @ 01:29 am
I keep trying to write about what just happened, but there's only so much I can bring myself to say. brian and I had an extremely intense experience and I saw a side of myself that I hope I can handle better in the future...the whole thing reminded me of the infamous curtain rod incident, but then, we look back on that now and smile...I hope we can do the same with tonight.

Right now I feel sort of stunned (in response both of us, mostly myself), but I actually feel like we're going to be a lot better off, once we've fully recovered from this; things were said and done that aren't going to be quickly forgotten. I just hope that in the end, I haven't painted myself as a sadist or uncaring; I did what I felt I had to do at that moment, but it wasn't done lightly.

brian, whenever you read this, remember that I love you no matter what, and that I will always forgive you, no matter what mistakes you make. You know better than anyone that I make plenty of my own. File tonight under the 'what doesn't kill us will make us stronger' category, aye?

And make sure you take extra good care of yourself today (hopefully you'll read this early in the day). Eat well, don't exhaust yourself too much with your schoolwork, and - have one of those Ferrero Rochers you bought.
 
 
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14 April 2009 @ 11:20 am
First and foremost: holy shit I love it when he calls me Sir. Just getting that out there.

Moving on!

Numbers have been crunched, and it looks like bri is good to go as far as gas money. And I've saved enough to provide for us while he's here. It's looking like I'll be in town till the 21st at least...at that point things are going to get insane, because we leave for Italy RIGHT at the end of finals week. I might get like two days in Connecticut. eeeesh.

However, I plan to spend the ~month prior to that enjoying WILD CARNAL PLEASURES, and also having someone cook for me, so I'm sure I'll make my peace with the setup somehow X)

I have one or two very nice things intended for this visit, by the way.

Let's see, D/s-wise...have started doing some light orgasm-control training with bri, that's fun. Right now I have solid control over what he wears, when he eats (to a certain extent; he asks permission, and I always make sure he has a solid meal in the evening at the very least) and when he gets off. It's hard to manage much more than that this far away, but we're feeling our way through it. I have to say, it feels a little more natural (at least on my part) this time around, as compared to our last long-distance D/s attempts.

I'd write more on the subject, but nothing's coming to mind right now. Perhaps later.
 
 
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13 April 2009 @ 04:09 pm
I too should be stressed out...and I am. Ugh.

Being dominant with bri is actually helping, though. It makes me feel like there's at least one thing in my life that isn't totally out of control, that I can actually handle competently.

Have been planning a few nice little things for when he's here. Also trying to make a few bucks on the side to furnish these things, so if anyone would like to get paid for trying out Gamefly or emusic, let me know (they will in turn pay me, everyone wins.)

Don't really have much to say on the D/s front right now, will hopefully have some thoughts on that to post here later.
 
 
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12 April 2009 @ 03:05 am
and there are at least five distinct things stressing me out right now, and i can't sleep.

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